I ask myself, 'Why am I a jerk so often'
I respond, 'Because you're used to dealing with idiots, Mike, it's become a force of habit to be mean'
The more I think about it, I begin to think that that isn't a good excuse.
I could blame it on how I was raised, or genetics.
My mom is a hardheaded smart ass, raised in the 60's and 70's.
She was always reckless, doing things behind my grandma's, her mom, back.
My dad, has a temper. Mom always tells me I'm exactly like him.
I am.
I just have more self control and instead of raising my voice I punch and kick things.
But, genetics isn't a good excuse either. One shouldn't be controlled by his genes if he has the mental capacity to make his own choices.
So, why am I a jerk to so many people?
I can't even hold discussions with people because of it, because of how stubborn I get.
I say I'll try to be better, but with me, 'I'll Try' has always been my excuse to get people off my case.
'I'll try next time' has been my excuse for the past 6 years in school.
On Gaia, I used to hang out in the Extended Discussion, raging war on christfags and idiots alike.
I got myself perma'd
I got called out by someone I respected, he called me out on how I ragefest all the time.
I calmed down a bit.
I still came off as a jerk, but I wasn't as angry.
I've been told about my jerkness pretty often.
I have yet to see if that has made an impact.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
Fuck I want money
I hate being poor.
It sucks so bad.
I can't do shit.
I live in the fucking Hood, the Ghetto is down the street. When we first moved in here there were crack dealers everywhere.
Now, well, there are still some pot smoking kids and whores walking the streets, but its better.
It still sucks.
I've wanted to do something for so long, but I ain't got the money to do shit.
Can't get a job because of the economy being so bad, and after Bill Heard (major car dealership in the south) shut down, and closed its two things here in Columbus, well, now ALOT of people are working.
Who would you hire first?
The newbie, or the guy with experience working with people.
If you said the latter, you're right.
Anyway, I'll write something about my Ideals later
It sucks so bad.
I can't do shit.
I live in the fucking Hood, the Ghetto is down the street. When we first moved in here there were crack dealers everywhere.
Now, well, there are still some pot smoking kids and whores walking the streets, but its better.
It still sucks.
I've wanted to do something for so long, but I ain't got the money to do shit.
Can't get a job because of the economy being so bad, and after Bill Heard (major car dealership in the south) shut down, and closed its two things here in Columbus, well, now ALOT of people are working.
Who would you hire first?
The newbie, or the guy with experience working with people.
If you said the latter, you're right.
Anyway, I'll write something about my Ideals later
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
This game is too packed...
The Force Unleashed, an awesome game utilizing awesome ideas, was awesome.
As expected.
It's just way to god damned packed full of things.
LucasArts decided to stick 3 engines in a game.
Havok, for physics, Euphoria for something, may be AI, and something so things can break realistically.
TFU is an awesome game, and that's just a fact.
Its the most fun I've had playing a star wars game since Jedi Outcast, the one with Kyle Katarn.
Speaking of Katarn. Galen Marek (Starkiller) is now officially more awesome than him.
So, the story is this.
Kento Marek, a fugitive Jedi living on Kashyyyk gets hunted by Darth Dildohead..
I mean, Vader.
Don't kill me.
Okay, so after 2 hours of killing wookies with the force.
(Its not 2 hours? Coulda fooled me, I spent 2 hours throwing them off the cliffs)
So, after Vader goes around killing everyone, Kento comes out all badasslike in his hooded robe and was like 'HEY, NIGGA, THESE AREN'T THE JEDI YOU'RE LOOKING FOR'
Vader, unphased by the failed attempt at being funny, beat the shit out of him, and choked him all to hell and threw him in his house.
He walks in and picks him up, and said something like 'I sense someone stronger'
Kento was like 'YOU KILLED MY MASTER'
Galen was like *phwoop, I gots ya saber*
Vader was like 'WTF A KID?'
Kento was like 'RUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUN'
Galen was scared
Vader was interested
Kento was dead.
Because Vader killed him
So, Vader was like, looking at Galen, and like, killed the stormtroopers who came to kill him.
And he was like 'LOL COME WITH ME'
So, Galen became Vader's secret apprentice and was trained in the Dark Side, and was told to kill Jedi.
There
Thats the point of the game.
You go around killing Jedi.
Well, until the halfway point
Then you go killing Sith Wannabes like Senate Guards
Anyway.
You get to pull a Star Destroyer down from the atmosphere and throw TIE Fighters at eachother.
I'm satisfied with just that, even if I had to restart about 20 times because dialogue skipped and the game froze.
I wouldn't buy it.
Rent it for a few days.
As expected.
It's just way to god damned packed full of things.
LucasArts decided to stick 3 engines in a game.
Havok, for physics, Euphoria for something, may be AI, and something so things can break realistically.
TFU is an awesome game, and that's just a fact.
Its the most fun I've had playing a star wars game since Jedi Outcast, the one with Kyle Katarn.
Speaking of Katarn. Galen Marek (Starkiller) is now officially more awesome than him.
So, the story is this.
Kento Marek, a fugitive Jedi living on Kashyyyk gets hunted by Darth Dildohead..
I mean, Vader.
Don't kill me.
Okay, so after 2 hours of killing wookies with the force.
(Its not 2 hours? Coulda fooled me, I spent 2 hours throwing them off the cliffs)
So, after Vader goes around killing everyone, Kento comes out all badasslike in his hooded robe and was like 'HEY, NIGGA, THESE AREN'T THE JEDI YOU'RE LOOKING FOR'
Vader, unphased by the failed attempt at being funny, beat the shit out of him, and choked him all to hell and threw him in his house.
He walks in and picks him up, and said something like 'I sense someone stronger'
Kento was like 'YOU KILLED MY MASTER'
Galen was like *phwoop, I gots ya saber*
Vader was like 'WTF A KID?'
Kento was like 'RUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUN'
Galen was scared
Vader was interested
Kento was dead.
Because Vader killed him
So, Vader was like, looking at Galen, and like, killed the stormtroopers who came to kill him.
And he was like 'LOL COME WITH ME'
So, Galen became Vader's secret apprentice and was trained in the Dark Side, and was told to kill Jedi.
There
Thats the point of the game.
You go around killing Jedi.
Well, until the halfway point
Then you go killing Sith Wannabes like Senate Guards
Anyway.
You get to pull a Star Destroyer down from the atmosphere and throw TIE Fighters at eachother.
I'm satisfied with just that, even if I had to restart about 20 times because dialogue skipped and the game froze.
I wouldn't buy it.
Rent it for a few days.
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