As I sit here in my boxers

I ask myself, 'Why am I a jerk so often'
I respond, 'Because you're used to dealing with idiots, Mike, it's become a force of habit to be mean'

The more I think about it, I begin to think that that isn't a good excuse.
I could blame it on how I was raised, or genetics.
My mom is a hardheaded smart ass, raised in the 60's and 70's.
She was always reckless, doing things behind my grandma's, her mom, back.
My dad, has a temper. Mom always tells me I'm exactly like him.
I am.
I just have more self control and instead of raising my voice I punch and kick things.
But, genetics isn't a good excuse either. One shouldn't be controlled by his genes if he has the mental capacity to make his own choices.
So, why am I a jerk to so many people?
I can't even hold discussions with people because of it, because of how stubborn I get.
I say I'll try to be better, but with me, 'I'll Try' has always been my excuse to get people off my case.
'I'll try next time' has been my excuse for the past 6 years in school.

On Gaia, I used to hang out in the Extended Discussion, raging war on christfags and idiots alike.
I got myself perma'd
I got called out by someone I respected, he called me out on how I ragefest all the time.
I calmed down a bit.
I still came off as a jerk, but I wasn't as angry.
I've been told about my jerkness pretty often.
I have yet to see if that has made an impact.